ANXIETY...

Sorry for the lack of updating the Blog! I'll do better I promise! You know how everyone tells you not to stress out when you're pregnant because its not good for the baby...Well, I'm afraid I stressed out our little one last week...or I like to say Todd did it. I'll try to shorten the story for reading purposes...Todd's been working out with a trainer. The trainer kept noticing how out of breath Todd would be just lifting weights and he would have a dry cough. His trainer suggested Todd go to a doctor friend of his who happened to work in the ER. Todd and I thought he would go and they would put him on some type of inhaler or allergy medicine. I got a call from Todd while he was at the hospital and he says...you need to come down here because my chest x-ray didn't look good and they're doing a CT scan. Now I was trying not to panic...I may have been doing a good job of this on the outside but on the inside I was scared to death. After the CT scan the doctor came in with a not so reassuring expression on her face. She said that according to the x-rays it appeared to be what is Sarcoid disease...she said this is not good news but at least she thought it wasn't cancer. However, she said she couldn't be sure and we needed to see a specialist as soon as possible to get the actual diagnosis. So I walked out of the hospital that night thinking...what in the world is Sarcoid and my second thought was please God don't let this be cancer!! Todd and I went to our normal family doctor the next day to get a referral to a pulmonary doctor. Our family doctor was nice but he still couldn't give us the full details on what this actually was hanging out all over Todd's lungs. So we had the weekend to fill ourselves with anxiety...We went to the pulmonary doctor on Monday (of last week)...how can I say this nice...he didn't have the compassion I wanted him to have! But the good thing was he was very honest. He couldn't give us a diagnosis based on x-rays alone...we needed to go for a lung biopsy. He did tell us that Todd's lung function was terrible...he's basically got 35% lung function. Which is pretty bad! So the next day we went to the hospital for the lung biopsy. I really can't capture the overwhelming anxiety both Todd and I felt at this time..we were both a nervous wreck. The lung biopsy went okay...It wasn't a pleasant experience for Todd...they put a scope down his nose and went all the way into his lungs...they did this while he was awake. But Todd got a little Morphine to help things. He was so funny afterwards drugged up on Morphine...he was telling every nurse that came into our room stories about whatever popped into his mind. It felt good to laugh!! So we had to wait for three days to find out the results...I got no work done...I was exhausted with stress...and finally Friday the doctor confirmed it was not cancer it was Sarcoid. Sarcoid is very treatable and in most cases goes into remission and goes away. Todd started taking medicine and we're opening he'll just be on the meds for three months. To end our week we went to the beach for the weekend...needless to say it was great to get away!! Please continue to pray for healing in Todd's lungs...Breathing is good...especially since he'll be chasing after a little girl in the near future! By the way our little girl kicked me for the first time...we were actually in the hospital after the biopsy...I told Todd she was wondering why in the heck I was so stressed out..so she kicked me!! It was a wonderful feeling...there is a baby in this growing stomach...and yes I am growing...no doubt I'm a pregnant lady now!! love you all!!